When I was a child I would look out the window hoping you would come see me. I wondered what was so wrong with me that you would desert me. Or what was so great to keep you away. As I got older I wanted to attend the daddy daughter dance, but I didn't have a daddy to go with. I never had the chance to hug you goodnight. I never got to hear you say you were proud of me. I went through a lot of bad guys, because I never had an example of a good one. I'm so afraid of being alone now, because I never got to see what a real relationship looked like. I'm still very uncomfortable around men, because I never knew what it was like to have one in my life. It's hard for me to accept compliments from men, because I never heard you say I was pretty. I never saw you in the stands cheering me on. There will always be a void. I will always hurt, but I am working on living and being a good women. I wonder how the days can go by and you never worry about if I am healthy, if I am eating, if I am just okay. How can you sleep at night not knowing you have a kind hearted, loving, caring daughter who wanted to love you back? I live with the hope that if you had to do it all over again, you would choose to be my daddy and
never leave me......
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