FAITH the size of a mustard seed

I’m looking for a way out. In the mist of the storm it’s so hard to wait on the Lord.  I’m not losing faith, it’s the control in me that makes me want to think of an alternate plan.  I want to be aligned with what God wants.  It’s hard not knowing for sure where I stand.  I can’t desert a friend to save myself?  I can’t hear what God is telling me. In the mist of the storm my mind goes unsteadily.  I can’t see what’s before me.  My body just wants relief.  I’m crying out to God for instruction.  “Please help me Lord I’m drowning.” Do I even deserve to be saved?  Do I even deserve His grace?  For the mess of me, for the mess I’ve become, for not wanting hardship or struggle.  I again desperately need you Lord.  So very desperately need you God.  I can’t be for him what he needs, because I can’t be for me what I need.  So, hurt that I had so many plans and back to where I was before, I’m so scared to stand.  I’m sinking, the pain is unbelievable, I can’t see the end of this.  I’m not losing faith, I’m a human being, full of sin and regret, full of resentment and contempt.  I just want to release it all.  I’m finding it hard to give it to God, and I have more faith than the size of that mustard seed.  I need God’s breath to be the life of me.

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." ~Matthew 17:20~

Keisha

In All Things.....Pray

Through the darkest of dark hours, please let God be your light.

When hope evades like the acquittal of the police killing another black man 

Pray.

When time slows down and in the midst of the storm you can’t find your way 

Pray

When words stumble out like smoke from a flame a tongue that can’t be tamed

Pray

When the world seems to suck all the energy from your space

Pray

When deserts seem quenched and oceans seem dry

Pray

In all days and in all times

Pray

Even when you can distinctly see God’s light

Pray

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always. 

~1 Chronicles 16:11~

Keisha 

The Truth

God will never disappoint, 

but people are sure too always 

If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. ~1 John 1:8~

Keisha

Shame On Us!

What type of world do we live in?

That a woman can be wheeled out of a hospital, 

In the cold,

And left at a bus stop

In a hospital gown?

What type of person? 

Allows a supervisor

To tell them

“Put her at the bus stop”

And they do it!

Where is the integrity in that?

We are factory animals 

Forging where ever the boss

Tells us to go.

Not letting God lead us,

But allowing sin to kill us.

And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.”

~Matthew 22:37-40 

He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?

~Micah 6:8

“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. ...

~Matthew 7:1-29 

Never allow anyone to dictate who you are or how you live.  Allow God to show you in which way you should go, and follow that path.  The other will surely lead you to destruction.  

~ Keisha

Woman Left in Cold

LOVE

The most magical

Phenomenon we have on this earth

                      Transforming

Can't hold it

Can't see it

But we know it's present

LOVE

Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. ~1 Corinthians 13:7

Keisha

The Injustice Of It All

It used to be;

If you don't stand for something 

                    You will fall for anything

It has now become;

If you don't kneel for justice 

                    You will continue being enslaved to injustice

Then he went off from them about the distance of a stone's throw and knelt down and prayed. ~ Luke 22:41

Keisha

The Truth

Beat like Rodney King,

Assassinated like Fred Hampton

Chocked to death like Eric Garner

Prosecuted daily like Angela Davis

Left for dead like Emmett Till

Centuries later and William Lynch still prevails 

Imprisoned like Nelson Mandela

Never really free like Solomon Northup

And yet they still want to keep hate promoting statuses up?

Always having to look back like Harriet Tubman

No place to call our own, robbed of land like in Pierce City, Missouri

Tired of fighting just to survive like Mark Matthews

Making us cry out against injustice like Nina Simone

Blinded by the truth like Ben Carson

Unwilling to stand for anything like David Richmond, Franklin McCain, Ezell Blair Jr., and Joseph McNeil.

Not afraid anymore like Dick Gregory

Our history is everyone's history

Our plight is everyone's plight

We didn't stop then

Why would we stop now?

Keisha

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. ~John 13:34~