Maybe the passion isn’t there anymore. Something, I’ve wanted so badly has turned into a curse of something I’m tired of working so hard to obtain. It’s like having my heart broken all over again -like the first time. Is giving up so bad? Maybe, what I believe in my core soul is not my true destiny. Then why do I want it so badly? Hey, we don’t always get what we want in this life. That’s what my great-grandmother said when I told her I’d hire a maid when I grew-up. Frustrated- this time at not wanting to clean my room. Her rebuttal was “welfare don’t give out maids.” She was half wrong, I’m not on welfare. Am I too keep trying when I continue to half-fail? I hear all the greats in my head saying “never give up.” I’m pretty sure there is someone in this world that kept trying until the last breathe left there lungs, and still no success. Do they regret it? I will never know. What about those who seem to acquire their dreams with minimal effort? I mean that is what is portrayed in the media, and in society. I understand that I am old enough to know better, but somewhere in whatever normal had become; the lines have become so blurred in this world that reality seems fake and fake news seems real. How can someone distinguish between the two? How does someone know when to throw in that proverbial “white towel?” What is the defining line? Who will take that chance on me? So many greats were told that they were never enough or had potential. I mean a guy said “no” to Queen! I’m no Queen, and maybe with some guidance and the courage of an experienced expertise in writing, I could be. On which line should I stand? Is it the grammatically errors that disgust the reader or the great content that keeps them engulfed?
“He was not the Model Boy of the village. He knew the model boy very well though-and loathed him” ~ Mark Twain
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"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. - Galatians 6:9
Keisha
