Day 13. And what a 13th day it was. I got so angry at someone today that I could feel the rage inside me building. It's such an unpleasant feeling. It took everything I had not to lash out. The tension we had between us was so electric meaning if someone had stood between us I feel like they would have been electrocuted. Even now when I write this I have such an angry feeling towards this person. It's really difficult in life when you don't want to be around someone and you have to be. It takes a lot of self control to get the job you came to do done without having this person effect the work you have to perform. It's like trying to change your life and having the devil come mess up what you have going. You have to pick up your feelings, maintain your composure, and continue on with purpose. It's not an easy thing to do. I always feel like when things are going well the devil doesn't like it and will battle you until you give up. Servants of God you can't give up! He will be at every door, every corner, under every thing you lift trying to destroy you and what you have created. The poor weak souls give in, the weak and slightly stable souls get lost, but the strong souls, fight with every fiber, every muscle, every bone, and the spirit always wins in the end...and the battle starts over......
What's on my mind? The people who we care about the most have the potential to hurt us the most, because they know our weaknesses. They know what buttons are the wrong ones or (to get you fired up) the right ones to push. Some people have a rough patch and unload their trash on you. It's really difficult to not allow these things to get to your heart. Understanding is key. Keeping in mind that maybe they are going through something. Don't do to them what they do to you. Don't do to anyone what they do to you. Try not to allow them to bring you down. I truly believe in everything happening for a reason. Sometimes in life we go through rough times, because they make us stronger. Some of us should be the strongest people in the world! However, when you go through these things and come out a campion then you have the wisdom to help someone else who is currently going through something similar. The challenge today in changing this upside down world is to help someone going through what you went through. Give them sound advise and support. Be a shoulder for them to lean on. I believe this also brings strength to your soul. Today I will leave you with an educational video.